This once again is off the path of my past recollections but I think yall may like another break from the drab story... This is sort of a confessions post for me actually. The following is everything, well almost everything I've done wrong, secret thoughts I have had, and lies I have told. So everyone hang on to your seats because some of these may involve you and apologies will be made along with the confession.
1) I slept with my ex-best friends boyfriend because she said I would never get a guy as good as hers... Now I would say I'm sorry for it but..... Well.... How do i say this... Look we are all grown ups here so I'll just say it.. I'd say sorry but she joined and enjoyed it...
2) Okay.. The first person i slept with was a chick. I was in 6th grade and she was a friend from class, it started as playing a game and then turned into...well i shouldn't have to go into detail.
3) I still have not forgiven my mom completely for everything that happened in the past and sometimes when i start an argument with her it's because i think she deserves getting yelled at. And no i'm not proud of it and i'm sorry for that, i try to let go but... I have issues with doing that,
4) Sometimes I wish i was a guy. Because when i look in the mirror sometimes i think i'd make a better dude than chick.
5) I stopped eating when i was about 16 for a guy that i fell head over heals with, but all he wanted was sex... And of course i ignored the obvious fact because i held on to invisible hope that he would really want me.
6) I got high and made out with my roommate for about 5 min. Then decided to go to sleep... Only because I wanted to back out of it. I didn't want things to be awkward between us and i really wasn't that into him.
7) I love weed. It really does help me sleep and when i smoke it relaxes me. Totally for legalization
8) I rekindled an old flame between an ex and myself, but realized i had changed and soon into the relationship wanted to break it off but was to afraid to do it. So i got a friend to tell him.
9) I cheated on 98% of my math tests in school. My family thinks i'm really smart but i am straight up stupid when it comes to that.
10) When i was married and things got hard i ran to my friend before my husband. And it was a friend he didn't trust so i had to lie about talking to her. That caused of course trust issues. I am sorry. Sorry because i was a coward not to go to him with the problems we had and instead run to an outsider. Sorry because in the end i lost him.
11) My divorce is mostly my fault. The knife that cut the rope is when i decided to come to PA to stay for awhile. But he told me he understood why i was doing it. I also got a piercing, that is now gone, that he hated and he finally told me never to come back.
12) I lied to my ex-husband about smoking for a long time. Finally in the middle of an argument i threw a pack of my cigs on the table in front of him and confessed.
13) I tried forcing my sister to get high, because i thought she needed to relax. I'm sorry Tay!!
14) I secretly wish i was like my cousin sarah. She is so pretty, has a great personality, is so damn creative and just an awesome person.
15) I threw a pair of scissors at my sisters fiance.
16) I have huge commitment issues and when someone gets to close i find a way to push them away. And i will do anything to push them away..ANYTHING!!
17) I lied to my aunt about something a counselor said once. I told her the counselor thought i should be in a home for girls. I did it because i wanted my aunt to be on my side and just to hear her say i didn't deserve to be in a place like that. But it back fired...She went to the counselor the next day.
18) I stole from a place i used to work at. All the time..
19) I had sex at work, a lot.
20) And to end this confession post... I envy the girl my ex is having a baby with...
okay yall this is by no means all of my confessions or the worst of what i've done or thought. so in the future there will be another confessions list. I hope yall dont quit reading because of some of the things i've confessed to doing... till next time....
And want to say sorry for everything i've done!!!
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